In a turmoil..

Well at least i know.. I know what to do now.. :) But still it saddens me to know that.. I badly need a hug.. :(

little things do grow

I am not sure what this is, but i know i need to cut this down. Though i hope that this would turn to be something great but as of the moment I will just go with the flow.. Whatever this is in time i will know.. :-)

hard time

Im having a hard time understanding my work now.. i actually dont know if i get to get this eventually.. :(

But i am trying my best to cope up.. hopefully i would be able to understand this by heart.. :D

So help me God.. :-)

 

why oh why...

I actually prayed for it.. i really dont know why but i really did..

this is not really it is but im getting there..

i hope and pray that this is it this time..  

though im not getting any hints yet but i actually prayed.. and ill pray still..

 

firsts..

Tomorrow will be my first day at work. Waa! I am excited but at the same time scared. Its my first time to work in a foreign land, will the people at work understand me - the way i convey to them? Im in a mix of both worlds.. hehehe! Anyway, i can do this.. (seems like that's the ultimate phrase i always use whenever im scared, huh? :D ) So help me God. :-)

This Nov 16 is my first monthsary , somehow i begin to embrace the life here. Though, i still feel sad whenever i think about cebu but i just wipe those thoughts out.. heheh!

My first month is a productive one, i was able to go to places alone already without using any mobile help even if i got lost several times. ahahaha! i got to meet and make friends. i got to explore singapore from one end to another (end-to-end solutions, sounds familiar?! ). i tasted some local food. i tried balancing in the train. tried also that auntie misunderstood everything i said. hehehe! but the thing that i am truly proud of is able to live life all by myself - its me who washes my clothes and irons them, i cook my food and also cook for my housemates (though failure sometimes.. :D ) and clean the house. I considered that as something to be proud of because in cebu i normally don't do those things.. hehehe. I just wake up, take a bath and eat and go to work. Here i need to think of what to eat and do the cooking. Though its hard at first but i can say now that i am getting used to this life already.. hehehe.

Sinking in...

Yesterday, Haidee toured me around the city. We went to Suntec, Merlion Park and VivoCity. The malls here are awesome and gigantic.. :D The place is so clean and everything is systematic. The people is so disciplined. Guess everything here is well-maintained.

I enjoyed the whole laag experience, only that my feet hurt and my stomach is not that well. Its maybe because of the new things they need to get acquainted to.. hehehe!


Now its my 3rd day here and my first time to be alone in the house.. :( Guess its sinking in already.. i miss my family and friends in cebu.. miss kabul and basyang.. miss manang and ginger.. miss william.. miss itat.. miss manoy.. miss onad.. miss my papa.. huhuhu. This is the first time i cried since i arrived and i really feel sad.. but i need to move forward and make way to the life i chose to in the first place.. i decided this so i have to do this.. Just hope that the loneliness i feel will eventually fade.

The day... :D

Waaa! The day has finally come..I am still scared especially at the immigration. Will i be granted or not? I can do this! :D

10 days! :)

It's exactly 10 days from now before I'll face the greatest challenge of my life (so far). And still everything is so vague.

I really don't know if I am excited or more scared so to say.

I don't know what my life would be when i get there.

What will be the changes I have to undergo?

Will I get to land a job? (well, if not I'll just go home but I pray that I get to.. :)

Will I be okay there thinking that I would be far from my family for the first time?

Will I become a nicer person (nice naman ko ron :P)?

Well I just hope and pray that everything is gonna be fine.

Thy will be done.. :)

Till next time ristie mari!!!

We had our last dinner and coffee session with ristie tonight.. :( I feel sad that she is leaving for japan again.. somehow it makes me feel alone for the 2nd time. This is not really goodbye coz we will definitely see each other again may it be here in the Philippines or wherever life takes us.. So for now im looking forward to my own endeavor as she is to her.. :D So rist, till next time.. and i know you'll be okay. What u are going through is hard but u can do it! Be strong and be firm.. Always remember: i skype rako pirmi.. ahahaha! You take good care of yourself kay mg thailand pata.. ahahaha. Ill miss u.. ug promise dli nko ma sad.. :P

Till we see each other again..

Today, we had our photoshoot with chooks at Family Park, Talamban. Thats their way of saying goodbye to their one and only cute and pretty ate.. hehehe! We really had fun and i had poses to my heart's content, with the help also of our choreographer, Joey. Anyway, today is a great day indeed.

Looking back at the images, i have realized that i surely will miss these guys. Just wanna say thank you for making my stay at alliance worthwhile and for being there. We'll always be chooks no matter what.. =) I love you all.
 
To some goodbyes may mean forever, some would say its now or never, but somehow it doesn't really matter its the years we've had together.  =(

Feeling of belongingness :P

Ristie's arrival is something i have been waiting for. Not just for the pasalubongs but the fact that a friend wherein i can say i originally belonged to. When ristie left for japan, gamay was outsourced and kring left alliance was one of the hardest.. i really felt i was alone. Though that thing enabled me to find new friends still the feeling of loneliness was there. And now that she's back i am really so happy i know this is only for a while but its fine for i am also leaving. :-)

This past week was so busy aside from being busy at the office, i was busy of dining out which has cost me 2lbs.huhuhu. Just wanna say thank you to ristie for all the pasalubongs, the freebies :P, the day at coco palms, the pictorial and all.. thank you! Thank you for being back, somehow it made my last days at alliance wonderful.. :D

Counting the days! :D

I finally told my PL that im gonna be up to that date only.. :-)
How i wish its earlier but due to some financial constraints, i just can't. hehehe.
Anyway, I'm glad i was able to made up mind.

I can say that this is it, there's no turning back now.
Everything is falling into place.
I can do this! I am strong, yes i am! :-)

Looking back!

Its funny how we got to do things just for someone we like to notice us. But in the end we realized that no matter how hard we tried, it just did not happen. Why? Simply because its just not meant to be. And there is nothing for us to do except to let go and just be happy for that someone. :-)

Renewed!

I never think about my life so much, i just go with the flow, but last week i did give it some kind of thinking.
Which is good. Somehow, it gives new meaning and inspiration to my life. I now have a goal to achieve and i am determined to reach that goal.
By God's will, i will. :-) I know i am better now and i can do this. :-)

Never had the guts

i admit! i did and still do. i never had the courage to tell you this, but i actually do. Thinking back, how i wished i did tell you but i just couldn't you know why? Coz i know u don't feel the same way. I believe if you have something to tell me, you'd tell me naman diba? But you never did. So that's it. :-)