Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Its better this way.. :)

I have thrown all the quotes/letters i have made for you.
Does this mean that I am really moving forward?
I really hope so. :)

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

If I believed

If I believed - Patti Austin
If I believed in paradise
I'd swear I must be there
I'd swear I must be there right now with you
If I believed in miracles
I'd know that one was happening to me
But if I don't believe in paradise
Then miracles aren't real
Then someone tell me what is this I feel
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I can't deny
if I believed in paradise
I'd swear I'm there
If I believed in magic spells
It all would be so clear
'Cause magic spells must have brought you here
If I could see the future
I'd see if you and I were meant to be
But I dont know any magic
And tomorrow's just a dream
But something in this fantasy is real
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I cant deny
If I believed in paradise
I'd swear I'm there
I'm there
I'm there
If I believed.

--Listening to this song makes me wanna cry. Especially the chorus part.
Yes, I want to believe that its love and my heart is not telling me a lie.
But sometimes its just so hard to trust my heart after all that has happened.
And I am also not that confident in us anymore :(

?

So confused and I don't know why. :( 

Friday, August 3, 2012

reward! :)

 
Omg! Now I am officially broke. :( Just spend around too much on something, hopefully it will be worth it. Then again I have thought about this for so long now and besides I have worked hard on the past few weeks, so its time for me to reward myself. yey!